Why Food Why

Why is it that food is such a wonderful fall back too? I had gastric bypass surgery done 2 years ago (august 2010) and swore I would never gain weight again. Boy was I wrong. I learned that I had a tool. Not a miracle. Still to this day food is my comfort. I love all foods... Food feeds my soul. Sometimes I wonder am I living to eat. The reality is I should be eating to live. I'm taking back my life. I hate looking into the mirror knowing that I've gained weight. I'm ashamed of myself. Why did I let food come back into my life? You are not going to win. I will overcome this. Food is my enemy (well the bad ones anyways). I know I must fuel my body but why does it have to be so hard. Why does everything in life have to be so hard? But once again, Reality is nothing in life is easy. So this is something I have to prove to myself. I'm sure there are people out there who know me and knew I would fail. But it’s OK. I did fail but I haven't given up. I will be the person I said I was going to be. It’s just taking me a few bumps in the road to get there.